Today’s prompt was to write about something difficult about your "lot in life" and how you're working to overcome it.
For all intents and purposes, my ‘lot in life’ is pretty damn good. This was one of the topics I’ve been most apprehensive to write about because I feel like anything I’d say would just come across like whining.
First off, I have a ridiculously good family. As in, when I have kids, I pretty much want to carbon copy my childhood for them.
I guess I could say I felt self-conscious in middle and high school, but I’m pretty sure that’s developmental and I emerged from it very much unscarred and was lucky enough to form a group of friends that are still my besties to this day. So no complaints there.
Let’s see… in terms of ‘guy’ issues, I never really had them. It helps that I sort of detest ‘dating’ and of the very few whom I did date, I could run into them and it would be all catching up on old times. No running the other way or awkwardness. So I consider myself to be lucky (and super picky) there.
Of course I hit the jackpot with James and that’s great too! I mean what could I even complain about there? He hates vegetables? Not really noteworthy. The man’s a gem.
So then I move onto other things. Maybe I could complain about literally graduating during the financial collapse. Yeah I guess that sucks, but we’ve been relatively unscathed by that and I have had the best support. Not to mention in my life I’ve always had access to amazing educational opportunities and healthcare and all those privileges that so many people don’t get. So no dice there.
It’s not really a revelation to me that my ‘lot in life’ is really great. The only thing I’d want to change is to move closer to my family and friends. However, I actively chose to move out here, so it’s not like my hand was forced. We’ll get there eventually (and, again, we’re extremely privileged to be able to someday do that). And of course I have bad days and things I’d like to change about my life, but I’m very fortunate that a lot of that I can actually change myself. I just have to get around to doing it.
I guess the thing I really grapple with the most is how best to use the opportunities presented to me. I don’t know how yet, but I would love to see more people being afforded those same opportunities. Yes, it’s a bit idealistic, but I’d love to someday devote my time to working on social changes. However, I’m getting away with myself a bit and that’s a post for a different time.