Thursday, January 12, 2012

On Stalling

There is something about the beginning of a new year that makes me think I am so type A.  Back when I was in school this happened bi-annually of course because the start of a new school year was the same.

Come March I was usually all, “Business management?  Really, Melina?!

And yeah, that happened.  In high school, no less.  Then again my last semester of college (music industry law… ?!!).  I’ve been told I’m a marginally smart girl, but the logic of that one still eludes me.

This new year I had such lofty plans, I did.  I went out and bought a planner.  A planner!  As if I ever use a planner for anything.  But lo!  I would this year!  I was going to make the apartment sparkle and schedule posts and find work the second I got back to California.  Admittedly, the cleaning is usually the first to go (aside from the planner… but that should go without saying).  The rest I have been decent at keeping up with, but only decent.  I could probably be more spectacular.  (Though my resume shines like the top of the Chrysler Building, I tell ya! All 4 versions.)

Then yesterday my brain literally said, “Enough!  Here’s a migraine.  Stop pretending you’re productive.”

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Note to self: Don’t sleep on wet hair… and clean the mirror.

So when I stop pretending I’m productive, I’m then forced to do what I do best: ponder the loftier things of life.  Particularly of this generation of mine and what we are going to do with ourselves.  Our parents were having kids at this age, do you know?  How is that possible?!  Exclamation point!

And then I fell asleep (it was about 6 pm… not recommended for use without migraine).

You see, these are the sweet sugar plums that dance through my head and lull me to sleep these days.  And by lull I mean overwhelm me to the point where, again, my brain goes, “System overload.  Reboot in 7 hours.

So maybe I need to dust off that planner of mine from the days of yore (you know, 12 days ago) and put it to use.  Do you think that will help?  Because, as of right now, I can’t even decide if I want to use my Forever 21 gift card on my current online basket… and that, my friends, is a sign of crisis!

2012 is going to be a good year.  I think I just stalled the engine yesterday. 

Luckily I’ve been driving stick for seven years now.


Did you really read all that?  Some days I just need to thought vomit all over a post.  Today was that day.


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